No wonder you're stressed. You having a really difficult time. And it's not surprising that you would wonder if you enjoy being a mother.
From your description, it sounds like you're nursing your baby--is this true? Even if you're not, it's not unusual for your baby to demand your constant attention.
My first concern is that you are not getting nourished. Whether you are nursing or not, (but especially if you are), you can not survive on water alone all day. This would be bad for your health in any circumstances, but with stress it is a terrible idea.
If you really can not cook during the day, and I know that sometimes it seems impossible, try to prepare some snacks for yourself the night before, when your spouse is home. Cut up some vegetables to munch on. Put some leftovers in a little container that you could easily re-heat. Have some cheese sliced to go on some crackers.
Get some food into your body and this will help you feel more refreshed and calm.
My second piece of advice would be to get some support or help with your son. Have you tried wearing your son in a sling? Sometimes this helped me to get work done. My child would feel comforted being right next to me, but I would have mobility to get work around the house completed.
Do you have any friends or relatives who could come over and give you a hand?
And finally, sometimes new mothers need to look at what their expectations are for their days. When my children were first born, it was a good day if I could even brush my teeth. We are all very capable women, and we have a hard time letting go of what we used to do. You may be in a period when your day is primarily about caring for your son.
Somehow you need to get yourself re-charged. You need to feed yourself and you need to get some support.
It's not unusual, or terrible to question whether you like to be a Mom. It's hard work and not always fun.
But take your question and use it as the inspiration to find what you love about mothering and build on it.
